Yesterday i watched the roommate with my loves Alijah, Bryan, David, & Ariadna. I was upset most of yesterday. Alijah & David paid for my ticket, too. We were at the Orleans. When we got the tickets, Alijah & i bursted out laughing. I was upset in the beginning. People told me things, i wish i never found out about. It made the movie so funny though. Nvm, that.. I sat between Bryan & David. Ariadna came late because she had gym. When we saw her, she looked like a grandma. She walked like one. Then, she look forever to buy her ticket. David stayed in the theatre & watched Alijah’s stuff. As we walked back inside the movie, i told her to sit on the other side of David away from everyone. The movie was all great until she came because she was fucking loud, which made me laugh. & my laugh made Alijah laugh. Bryan sat there with this serious face. David kept telling us to shut up. But, i mean, she sprayed perfume because she came from gym, right ..? She sprayed too much, so she started walking around. Who does that !? A weird fucking child, that’s who. This movie was so coincidental with the names of the characters. It upset me even more. David was my foot rest the entire movie. At the end of te movie, the guys left us while we talked to the parents. The guys went in the arcade, of course. We’d go in there just to give them hugs. Those ass cracks; i love them actually. I was in somewhat of a good mood when the movie was over. Happier than i started, at least. I didn’t sleep most of that night because i was thinking alot. Yeaah.
Today, Alijah came over. She came over when i wasn’t ready for her too. I was in the middle of a shower. My room was a mess & everything. We took weird pictures always & acted like creeps. I was in a better mood than yesterday, on the bright side.
I don’t understand you, at all. Today just simply proves it. You tell me one thing, & tell others another. You lied. You’re two faced. You are player. Let’s leave it at that. I truely believe you now. Are you happy ..? I don’t understand the point of us going through this again when it’s obviously going to end up the exact same way.
I really can not believe you did what you did, & said what you said. We are not even friends. If you say we are, your definition of the word friendship is the complete opposite of mine. It sucks that i’ve had to experience this twice just because i didn’t learn the first time.
I get on facebook & i see someones status saying, ” I’m at a Cashman Vs. Rogich game. “
It’s just a memory, but..
I remember last year, at around this time, when they had a game versus Rogich, & gosh.. I was originally going with just Alijah & David. Allison wanted to go, but she went to orchestra. Then, it got cancelled. She ended up watching it with us. We also ended up watching it with Brian Swearingen. I remember that i stopped talking to him at that time. We didn’t talk to eachother for the most part that year. So Alijah sat with him, and so did Allison. I sat right behind them with David. The kids behind us went through David’s backpack & they threw his deodorant at us ! I left at 3:30 with Allison. Brian & i hugged, oddly. Oh, & Lenon had me listen to the song ” Your Love Is My Drug ” as we walked back to our cars. I remember that day vividly..
I’d like to go back in time, i miss seventh grade, alot. :/
If it isn’t obvious already, i feel stupid about this. And that. And last year. And.. and everything.
I feel horrible. It makes me feel like shit. Straight up, it does. Maybe, uncomfortable more than anything though.
Honestly, we aren’t even friends anymore. It isn’t much of one at least. We don’t talk. Texting at the most, a hug here & there, and maybe a hi, but that’s just pushing it. The hugs are quite stupid & the text messages, let’s just say they aren’t typical ones. You know when you get mad at someone, but can’t help but wonder how they are, what they’re doing, etc. because you care so much anyway ..? That is the only reason why when we used to argue, or now that we’re kind of talking again & we argue, we become ” friends ” again. I’m not sure if it’s what someone would call a friendship, but i guess it’s the closest we’re going to get. An on and off friendship ..? On for a week, off for the rest of the month. Then, over again.
Soo, today i went on a trail at my uncle’s house. It was a very long one. One way, to the end took 2 hours ..? It seemed faster walking back though. I talked to both Brian & Bryan today, and Ariadna. There was alot of tripping on rocks today too. I was happy. We got lost, had to pee, all sorts of shit. Then, there was church. It seemed to go by faster than normal. I did math homework, kind of. Awkward convos occured, of course. Can’t ever forget about that. Anyways, great day. Great day.